I have been looking for a home recently. And I have been examining those ever present questions in the human being: “How will I be feeding myself? How will I maintain a roof over my head? How will I get everything that I want in this world?”

No matter how many pyramid schemes you may have come across, in our culture (no matter what the mythos states) it doesn’t matter how hard you work. It matters what you do, not how, or how diligently you do it. For the most part. A person may put his soul into working ten hour shifts at a recycling plant for $10/h. another may put in the same hours and make $75,000/year. The invisible poor - those who are not jobless and not helpless. They work for a wage that barely covers the costs of anything. They survive; not thrive. The whole banker-bonus-thing has brought this in to the public eye recently and yet they know that the power brokers owe them everything and they consider themselves untouchables.

I watched an amazing film recently. Not a dry eye in the house when it was over. It is called ‘Happy’ (www.thehappymovie.com) as the statistic goes, there is no difference between the happiness of those making $50,000 a year and those making $500,000. But between those making $5,000 and those making $50,000 there is a gap. The conclusion is ‘sure… Money can’t buy you love but it sure helps to make living better when you have enough to not have to choose between the pear and the raw cereal bar. Not to mention those who have to choose between a pear and canned beans (see the movie Food Inc. www.foodincmovie.com).

Conclusion? Capitalism is evil. Competitive existence is wrong. There would be more food to feed the world ten times over if we just stopped putting most of our resources towards killing each other. Now I know, that is a complicated issue and I’m not naïve about it. I just hope that in a hundred years people won’t have to worry about this kind of thing any more.

As I was sitting with/praying about what work to do and how worthy I feel and how guilty I might feel if I was making more money, I recalled how I ended up with the most amazing and compatible life partner I could ever have hoped for. I remembered that I looked inward and found that energy in myself before repeating the same mistake of chasing the dream (and my projections) outside myself. And so I applied the same principle. Within me is the energy of the work I can do that will bring me everything I want and more good than I can or have the ability to imagine. This is the law of attraction… become the vibration within and the same will certainly manifest without. 

Hope

is the realization

that within you

beats the heart of God!

            It is not a dream

            It is not a Godsend

                AMNESTY

            It is not a weakness

                of your enemy

            It is not a future

            without pity or remorse

            of terrorizing the emptiness

            within you –

                 Revenge

            of the Gods on the

                 Devils!

            It is not home

               not a predator

                   abandoned to horror

                        It is not safe

                           abandoned to be

                               alone

            It is not a handkerchief

               laying alone

                   never used

                        never blown

            It is not the weird

            unstoppable power of

                A SWORD

                    all mighty

                         given to Adam

                              to stop evil

                                    from ever happening again!

            It is you

              and a point

                 of a pin

                     without hope

                         without regret

                             without sorrow

                                 without breed

                                     without death

                                         without giving

                                             without deed!